you're actually your only audience boo 🪞

Hi me again!!! Back so soon hooray I will always act on inspiration while it’s there because much like everything in life, nothing is ever stagnant and we ebb and flow and, I know myself all too well to pretend like I don't enter hermit modes every few weeks and disappear on my creative expression so yay for more channelled thoughts. This one’s actually so good too because obviously if you’ve been paying attention all I do is write and create from my own experiences and so I gotta shout this one from the rooftops. My nails are also way too long and grown out right now to be typing comfortably so this is low key annoying plus that just reminded me to book my appointment for this weekend and there’s zero availability so good luck to me until next week.

I’ll get right to it so you know how there’s a whole lot of chatter around maximizing our perceived aura these days???? Or farming it?! Whatever the f they call it, and then I also see so many posts about how to be a person of high value or how to be the most magnetic person in the room and it gives a list of cues and things to do physically or with your energy so that others perceive you as someone of value or some sort of energetic hierarchy that someone else decided?! Makes me do a frustrated foot stomp like tinkerbell because I'm a fairy baby angel but I also love when I see things that make me go UGH no you forgot your damn power babe let me remind you of it!!!!!!! Because sure there’s a truth to it, I guess psychologically and energetically there are things that make one magnetic to be around. The nuance being you cannot create that backwards or uno reverse authenticity because it will collapse if it’s not built from the inside out. I know we’re all craving connection and being understood and being SEEEEEEEN, whether you can admit it or not, you are because you’re a human and you’re here and that's all the evidence I need to be able to say that with confidence.. However if your priority is to determine or control how others are perceiving you….the magnetism will fade before you can even register that it’s there.

From everything I’ve observed so far along my juicy lil journey here as an endlessly curious being, the most magnetic and valuable and sexiest ever version of yourself you could possibly embody, is the one that doesn’t give a fk how they’re being perceived by anyone but themselves, and is fully living in a state of love. Meaning that you're expressing and creating from a state of pure being, because our natural state is simply that. So my point being bring your focus back to yourself always you sexy little minx because you cannot perform aura. You cannot convince anyone of your value by manipulating the environment or circumstances or actions you take part in. Or you can try, I guess, like go ahead and do it. It just probably won’t give a lasting feeling of connection or intimacy because it’s built on a facade. And I will say that I don't think this is gunna stop an entire population from fucking around and finding out, I suppose this is for the ones reading who are going hmmmm this kinda sounds a little off to me I can't help but wonder if it seems backwards?! It is babe!! 

Do your thing I’m not here to judge because I spent my fair share of time in that place of wanting to control how I’m being perceived by others and I know it was coming from a genuine desire to be seen in a way that made me feel sunshiney and so that others would leave interactions with me feeling so good!!!! But that got exhausting. I think I wrote about this a year or so ago actually where I had a visual come up that it was like a camera lens, behind the scenes of the lens, and I had the filter before my expression so that I could first read the audience and assume how it would be received, therefore manipulating how I would express……and then I realized waiiiiiiiiiit I’m wasting energy there, let’s move the filter AFTER it’s received so that I can express fully and as authentically as possible, and if it’s received then yay carry on in that space, if not I get to reposition myself. And using my energy to fully express and reorient myself around others is so much more effortless because it’s coming fully from my home frequency where I am just purely being who I came here to be, and I let others meet me there if they so desire, or carry on their way if not! I don't have to control anything but how I'm showing up, whereas before I was controlling how I wanted to be seen AND how I was BEING……a little tiring ya??

So sure you could learn how to position your hands and tilt your hand in a certain way while you’re talking to people, you could follow trends and styles just because someone told you to, or do everything under the sun to try and be impressive, look confident and be charismatic without it looking like you’re trying…………….or you could come back home to yourself and meet every corner of your being so that no matter who or where you show up to, you’re more focused on actually connecting or creating and can be present in it. Because I'm pretty sure if you’re busy putting your energy into appearing a certain way you’re not even actually IN the moment you’re trying to show up in?!!?!??! Doesn’t it sound a lil silly goosey of us when you think about it hahahahah. Growing up I used to want to fit in and feel like I was really part of something, and somewhere along the way I remembered that fitting in = conforming and, I'm not really all that great at that. You can imagine the tension there.. What makes you YOU, is something entirely different than every other soul out there so redirect your focus to remembering that and coming back to it, because it’s always been there you just stacked a whole buncha layers on top. Which is totally fine and that’s all part of it. Like I said in my last post it's messy and uncomfortable and sometimes a bit of a jumpscare when we realize what we’ve been holding onto all this time, but I truly believe with my entire being that it makes the journey back home to self SO romantic and absolutely worth taking your time in. Cus once you get back it’s a little boring………hahhahahahahahha so kidding it’s like you unlock a whole new level of yourself that now you just get to enjoy BEING and it’s liberating and freeing and an absolute JOY, and of course I’m forever evolving and a student of life but doing it from a place where you really know yourself, where you don’t feel the need to perform who you are, you just BE who you are…..well that’s hot. And I knew it would be which is why even in the unravelling I reminded myself, you’ll never be here again babes so might as well make it sexy.

Love ya!!

xx Sarah