curiosity leading to confirmation 🧘🏼‍♀️

Hola guapa (o guapo!!!) 🌶 hahahah I genuinely am starting to think I have been latin in some of my past lives there’s simply no way that’s not true.. If I end up doing a past life regression or it comes to me in meditation soon I will absolutely share with you but for now, I’m letting the immaculate vibes and energy that I got from being in Costa Rica last week confirm enough for me.. 

I’m writing this one a week later and honestly before I went I sort of had the intention of a pre-trip post to divulge why I somewhat last minute headed down there and instead wrote about my uber driver on the way down LOL but this one can be a combination of pre and post trip thoughts perhaps.. It might be the first one that my intention actually flows throughout the post wow growth!!!!!

Okay so back waaaaaaay up to literally 2 years ago, before I went on a 3 month adventure in southeast asia, before I decided to go there I remember having in my head that I wanted to do either asia, costa rica or maybe mexico for a few months that winter to escape the vancouver cold, and ultimately I chose asia, and it was the time of my life and so incredible and wow… reminiscing… anyway and when I got back, life kept life’ing and opportunity came up that assured me I would be in costa rica within the next year which was exciting, plans kept falling through but basically I began 2024 knowing I would be there at some point in the year, and so many things unfolded for this to happen the way it did but long story short, I ended up taking myself to a wellness/divine feminine/yoga/self love retreat in the jungle for a week and it was absolute perfection. I guess it was subconsciously in my head for over a month when I connected on social media with the sweet angel who was hosting it and then one day, after seeing costa rica & retreats EVERYWHERE I was hearing that message loud and clear 🫡 so I just knew I was supposed to be down there end of november because I also felt it was time for sunshine, and when I checked her post that it was nov 24 for a week I basically was registered and flights booked within like 2 or 3 weeks of going hahah she moves FAST Y’ALL…. 

To be honest I really didn’t have specific expectations about the retreat, having never done one but also I see myself holding that space for others in the near future and so my mind was wandering all over the place with genuine excitement to witness the experience of it all. I’ve spent a lot of time and energy in the self love & wellness realm and so I didn’t necessarily have a huge intention in terms of what I wanted to come away from it with personally, even though I know that no matter how much growth you do on yourself you can always go deeper so I didn’t think I would come away with nothing that’s for sure… ultimately I was just really open to the whole thing and knowing that I was meant to be there and that the clarity would eventually come to the surface. Guys honestly it really pays to be an open minded soul in this human experience because it gives space for so much possibility and learning and also what I noticed is that I felt really really present with myself and others the entire week 🥹 which felt very cute. Very connected. 

I’ve had a few real juicy insights come in since being there and integrating back home, and I don’t know that I’ll share all of them in this post but something really cool that I noticed while I was there was how I was practicing the balance I’m working on these days in my daily routine. I shared in a previous post how I’m learning to navigate a lot of different things going on in my life currently and how I have brought a lot more structure into my days in this season, even though I went a little too hard with it for a hot minute, I’m ✨ recalibrating ✨ so I can find the sweet spot that works for me to have the right amount of grounding and stability that allows me to float and be flexible as much as possible. This was some very helpful insight that my psychic gave me which I was slowly starting to learn but the confirmation came at the perfect time because a retreat that involved 7am yoga every morning with workshops and planned meals would have made my whole body rigid a few months ago… but I was ready to lean into that structure and work to find a new balance through this week that also gave a lot of space for free time which I ultimately needed to be able to go be a lizard in the sun for hours on end during the rest of my days… maybe a spanish lizard was my previous life idk I just know I fkn love soaking up every ounce of the sun to read and meditate and just be and so, this was the perfect retreat layout that gave me that balance between structure and flexibility and how divine that it was the last retreat she was hosting for a while after doing 15 over the last handful of years. This really was the embodiment of divine timing hahaha mi dios….

I think the really funny part of me being on a yoga retreat was that I didn’t even like yoga HAH did we touch on this in a previous post!?? 🙃 I feel like I might have but if not I have realized this year that I never resonated with the glamourized western take on yoga that just seemed to be trendy and the way I personally saw it was that it was common to do yoga without embodying the rest of the yoga lifestyle that includes so much more than just the physical practice. Not that there’s absolutely anything wrong with that and if you love just moving your body in this way it’s amazing, but for me I think there was simply a gap that I didn’t take the time to look into, based on what I had experienced from any of the yoga classes I had done in the past but the wonderful soul that was doing our 7am yoga sessions all week closed that gap that I had started to work on beautifully for me. He had a unique style of teaching where he basically gave us a lesson for the first 40 minutes on all things emotions, where in the body they show up, how your yoga posture in practice is how you hold yourself throughout your days, and he would focus on a specific area or body part each day and have us integrate these learnings in the group setting before then actually moving into a yoga flow that continued to focus on that part of the body he taught on. Long (could be longer) story short, along with me diving into all things emotions and the body and working through the body keeps the score and becoming beyond passionate about well, our emotional bodies!!! this practice gave me such incredible insight on how to integrate the only piece of yoga that I hadn’t really incorporated into my life, as I’m someone who really works to embody all the other aspects through mediation, mindfulness, ethical practice, diet & nutrition, contribution, nature, daily discipline etc!!! It’s the entire lifestyle and I’m really grateful to have gone deeper into the practice over the week and fully plan on integrating more of the flow into my days because that intention of creating more space in your energetic/emotional body is absolutely stunning… 🧘🏼‍♀️✨

Anywho that’s just two of my insights, the experiences that I'm navigating the depths of these days are all just confirming to me how my curiosity is leading my life in the most beautiful way. When you're curious about yourself mostly, as well as others, you get to move through this human experience with more ZEST 🍋 if you will.... which personally I'm finding to be super fun.... so.... perhaps I’ll share more on the plant ceremonies soon hehe so fun and juicy okay NIGHT love you <3 

xx Sarah