dissolving judgement 🍂

Hello gorgeous humans!! Last night I had like a lil mini freak out of “I have SO much I want to share and express and I don't know how to share it all!!!!!!!!!” hahahahha and by freak out I mean I simply thought this.. sat with it.. followed it with “well baby girl the answer will come to you soon!!” And I went to bed LOL 🌝 I genuinely am so proud of the level of patience I’ve remembered how to live from and to be quite honest I give full credit to a regulated nervous system and trust in myself because urgency and rush is rooted in lack and I chose to no longer live there and when you can feel big feelings and be with emotions as they come without needing to do anything about it right then and there, you know you’ve got your power back. 

So as an extension of that thought, bear with me as I think out loud via typing hahaha I wonder if I just see myself creating more structure in my days to use that creative energy that I seem to have bursting out the seams… because yes I feel I’ve harnessed my feminine and know how to go with the flow and surrender and trust and lead from my intuition – after YEARS of trying to control, force, prove my hyper-independence – it really feels like I’m right smack dab in the middle of the harmonizing piece between my feminine and masculine energies. Mastering the balance. Or working towards it because do you ever master balance? I don’t know, let me know if you think you have cus I’d love to pick your brain and learn from you!!!! Actually that’s kind of a lie I don’t think I need studying or learning I know exactly what it takes and what it might look like it’s more so just fine tuning my own ways and honing in on what works for me…which I think I’ve been doing a fab job so far and am just looking to strengthen my masculine container that I hold for myself so that my feminine has structure to flow at her own pace in!!! Ugh sexy 🫦 The way I feel like that’s dirty talk just proves that what I’m creating and doing work around is so aligned hahahhha

Okay anyway that was a total sidebar from what I actually wanted to chat on right now and if I’m being honest, which I am always and forever, I have to remind myself that perhaps you never achieve the ideal balance because you’re always refining and realigning to what’s needed in the moment and what I do know for CERTAIN about myself is that I always lean into what my priorities are. As soon as I’m aware of something I would like to do or have or be, I’ve proven to myself time and time again that no matter the timeline or path, I move towards it so I suppose this is just another stretch or growing pain where I’m like “ok I'm just leaning into strengthening the container that makes space for my consistent creativity”.... Ya that feels right. WELP stay tuned hahahahah. What I have on my mind to express here right now is this whole judgement thing… I’ve been having a lot of chats on it over the last week with my higher self or my guides or whoever’s voice I hear when I start asking things hehehe because I personally have noticed over the years where I might have been judging something or someone, recognized that that’s not a frequency I want to reside in, and then have done the work to shift from that state. And it’s come up recently as I see so much commentary or hear others judge on even the simplest of things, but that are nonetheless so not helpful with where the collective energy is headed. One that sticks out because it’s super relative right now is the whole bangwagoning on the world series and how the Jays are slaying and everyone and their dog is suddenly invested or interested or riding the wave and I’ve heard/seen people questioning why the heck that’s about or what it means, and while I can so relate to the curiosity of it all, the energy you’re coming from is so telling of where yours is at!! Because it’s one thing to notice the energy and understand what’s going on, but as soon as you have a negative tone around it and think it’s dumb or not okay that people are just excited about something they normally don’t pay attention to, you enter a state of judgement. I first of all noticed and witnessed myself – someone who has zero investment or really cares about sports to begin with – jumping into the excitement and following the games the last week as they’re in the final series. I’ll just put the game on while I’m making dinner and watch as I’m chilling for the evening and I immediately asked myself what that was about bahahaha and recognized it’s just that there’s a huge collective energy of excitement, joy and hope that’s super accessible because like with any sports game, there’s a very very large amount of people tapped into that frequency and especially being in Canada, our entire country for the most part is rooting for this team so like duh the energy is high. If you’re familiar with the world of energetics and quantum physics you get it, if not so much, humans simply give off and radiate energy at all times and it’s somewhere on the large energetic scale of every possible frequency, low to high and so currently with something exciting, that’s where the energy will be for the collective. No different than when tragedy happens or politics are heightened and people feel predominantly fear or stress, it ripples across the globe and we all feel it, consciously or unconsciously hehe. So anyway it’s just that simple, big sports things bring that excitement and right now more than everrrrrrr, safe to say everyone is craving connection and community, and one of the most basic human needs that we want to feel part of something – is very present. So the fact that something as simple as a sport that feels like more people than normal seem to be invested in, even if 2 weeks ago they didn’t bat an eye at anything baseball related (hi, me kinda!! lol!!), I would say it’s just highlighting the fact that we’re always craving that feeling. And it doesn’t matter how fulfilled your life already is, I personally have things on the go that I’m always excited and passionate about and creating, and don’t feel I lack connection and community by any means, but for anyone that might not have that in their day to day life at the moment, then of course it feels really fkn good to tap into this energy!!! So what this really emphasized for me in a more large-scale, zoomed out view, is that we simply don’t get to judge how other people find their joy and excitement or sense of belonging. I’m saying this from an expanded perspective as someone that definitely at some point along my journey would have been in a state of judging others on their decisions but literally all judgement is – in this context is saying "I wouldn't do or choose that for myself” when it’s like well DUH because you’re YOU… if you were THEM, then you probably would and that’s okay?!?!? It can be as simple as judging a friend for dating someone you wouldn’t choose to date or wearing something you wouldn’t or expressing themselves in a way that seems so bizarre to you… and it’s like well ya of course because you’re different people with different tastes and preferences and priorities and it’s so important to recognize that if you were in their shoes and had lived the exact same path up until that point you WOULD be making the same choices tbh… but because you haven’t been... you don’t. Hahahah of course there’s then the whole discernment piece and bringing a strong sense of emotional capacity to certain things like, for anyone out there that’s letting their day be ruined by the outcome of a sports game and choosing to rage at others over it or allowing the stress of political events cascade through your entire life or whatever it might be that you’re so invested in that your nervous system's spiralling because of things that are very not threatening to your life…that’s where my concern would be 😂 but in the sense of a whole bunch of people being excited over the same thing and finding joy in their days over of something that for some, might be so meaningless or simple, but could be the highlight of someone else’s life like idk???? Who cares??? We don’t get to decide what lights others up or judge how they seek the high frequency of love and abundance that we’re ALL after at the end of the day… and as someone who seeks that in every single moment of all my days, even the harder ones, I can definitely say that it would be most ideal that something truly as simple as that would then inspire and invoke people to seek that feeling more often and in every other area of their life, because that’s how we cultivate more connection and community – in following whatever excites you or makes you feel good and then you inevitably align with others on a similar wavelength to you!! God forbid people try new things, explore avenues or change up what excites them!! Expand out of the box you’re keeping yourself in!!!! HOW CUTE IS THAT!! I think after reflecting on this and digging into why it feels prevalent, it made me quite proud to be able to see it this way because a few years ago I definitely was someone that probably judged others for caring about sports or loving reality TV or fkn WINTER for that matter…. disgusting but do you boo…. Thinking that because I have some beautiful big sense of purpose or specific vision that I’m devoted to following I couldn’t possibly have time for anything else in my life… hahaha but when you continue to lean into your curiosity to understand yourself and others, the way we navigate the world and the truth of who we are, your need to control anything other than your own energy certainly softens 🥹 and if you wanna really lean into it, when we judge others we’re actually just judging a part of ourselves because we are all one… each a fragment of consciousness which is one thing sooooooo……maybe start there HAHA where are you unconsciously judging yourself EEEK 🤭👀

Anywhooooooo g2g watch game 6 LOL… I have actually been tuning in halfway through the games, that’s how little I care but am equally interested??? I hope your week’s been fabulous and I am excited to share in some way shape or form when I figure out how or what it looks like for me to express more consistently or abundantly!! I’ve asked so it’s only a matter of linear time before the alignment reaches me muwahahahha love you beautiful creatures thank you for catching up with me 💌

xx Sarah