expanding my capacity for magic 🔮

Well well well…look who’s back! Hehe you I’m talking about you, being back here reading this sweet sweet post that I’m so excited to be writing. So I have to share that I’m kind of doing these like people do podcasts where they record a whole bunch in advance so they can schedule to post etc.. because I wanted to give myself a head start and then be able to keep up with it consistently yay! And this is how I know I’m stepping into a new timeline, a more evolved version of me, closer to my higher self because I know what it’s going to take to be that version of Sarah that keeps up with a blog and builds a website and a brand and does an online coaching program and works pretty well full time and manages friendships and keeps up with her wellness and takes time for herself….it is A LOT! But I want all of those things and I know it’s going to be messy and I’ll stumble along the way and that is what’s going to make it so beautiful, I’m already so proud of her 🥹 Just right now I’m leaning into the uncomfy balancing act that libra season is really handing right to me in the midst of equinox season LOL!!! Okay I had another idea for this one but let’s go there instead..

There is quite a large gap between the current version of me, a spiritual little witchy fairy lover girly human…and the version of me 5 years ago that claimed to be a “realist” that did a bachelors of science degree and needed physical proof before believing anything.. I know right, an interesting contrast indeed. Now I kinda just think realists are pessimists pretending to be optimistic hahaha I think you keep yourself limited and accepting in a situation based on what’s already happened and it leaves absolutely no room for the possibility that exists outside of that ✨ I’m sure there’s heaps of definitions you could throw at me that say other things but, what I’ve learnt in the last chunk of years is that the more you expand your mind to all the potential outcomes in a universe of INFINITE possibilities… the more fun life is. Trust me on that one 🥲

This is so funny because the first personal development book I ever read was when I started my network marketing business and when my sister handed it to me suggesting I read it, I literally said “why would I need to read that I know what I’m doing” hahahha…. that’s actually laughable to me now, I hold that version of me so close to my heart because she really was just out there saying that wildest stuff and still being cute. Spoiler though - I read it!! I did not in fact know what I was doing, and I did very much need to dive into that space heavily for me to get to where I am and I’m forever grateful. I think within that year I read Joe Dispenza’s Breaking the Habit of Being Yourself, and that was the book that taught me how to rewire my brain. That book is magic, it’s the neuroscience of change, it explains how our identities are shaped by our thoughts, emotions and habitual behaviours that can trap you in familiar patterns that limit your potential. It expanded my mind beyond what I knew and the more I dove into this work, the more I realized I knew nothing! So beautiful 🙃 so I started paying attention to my thoughts and emotions and patterns and decided I wanted to change them…just like that, how easy! Haha not. Perhaps I’ll skip ahead to now, 5ish years later and I don’t think I’ll ever not be doing this work because we are evolving magical beings that are here to grow and learn and I’m so committed to that it’s silly. It’s very hard though. Growing as a person requires doing the hard work in the moment, it’s uncomfortable, it’s challenging to navigate and cultivate trust in yourself, but it’s made my life so much better and more aligned on every single level, and I’ll chose that any day over doing what’s easy in the moment to live a life of complacency and comfort 🥵

What’s even juicier though is that as someone that’s done a LOT of self exploration and invested so much into getting to know myself and grow myself, this last 5 months has pushed me way past the limits I had on myself and it’s almost like the last few years were just preparing me to expand throughout this season of my life. I didn’t really expect it to unfold in the way that it has and again I’ll share more on that eventually, but it has really truly been the most emotionally challenging and beautifully chaotic and healing season I’ve had so far in my 28 years. Which brings me back to the point of this post - is that I am in my saturn return era, which for the non spiritual or astrologically involved cuties, is when saturn returns after a full orbit around the sun, to the point it was at when you were born. Its peak happens around 29-30 years but it’s a whole thing and you start to notice its shifts before then anyway and man oh man are they significant. We typically shift into deeper maturation, self reflection and introspection on our life’s path, and it brings up a lot of challenge as it forces you to face your fears, limitations and old patterns but if you chose to, you can lean into it and listen to your dang intuition because it’s liberating as hell and I promise you you will feel more aligned if you are curious about whatever it is that comes up for you, rather than resist it. I feel like I’m just getting started and it’s already juicy and sexy and fun 🫦

In the last few months I’ve come to realize that the last couple years I have been operating heavily in my feminine energy, which is beautiful and magical and I’ve learnt to fully trust in my journey and even moreso, myself.. but with the imbalance and lack of leaning into my masculine energy I hadn’t taken the action that was required to step into this next version of me that’s building something I can stand on. But please PLEASE don’t get it twisted, I truly believe everything happens in divine timing and if I was ready to do it before now then I would have!! Clearly I was not ready yet. And I am beyond grateful for everything I have brought with me along the way because learning to trust in yourself is the most empowering and liberating thing you can do. Then I dove in way further than what I knew existed in the world of human design, numerology and astrology this summer which, even just 4 years ago I would have made fun of myself for, but now know that it’s just allowed me to remember the things about me that I always embodied but over time had pulled myself out of alignment from. If you’re a healthy skeptic like I was, just know that the more I’ve allowed myself to listen to my intuition and follow my design and the stars, trust in my innate skills & gifts and lean into what the seasons bring us, the more in alignment I become and I’ve never felt more like myself than I do right now. And that’s in the current season of libra that I'm writing this in, where the emphasis is on balance and it just so happens my north node is in libra meaning I’m meant to focus this lifetime on balance and harmony in relationships, AND my chiron is also in libra so HUGE HUGE flashing lights for me in this lifetime to focus on and do the most healing in balancing relationships and and my health all things. which also makes perfect sense why I met a lot of challenge within my health and going to the extremes and also I've seen it in relationships of all kinds... but it's no longer surprising as I’m navigating this season hahaha. 

On a practice coaching call in my program last week, another cohort member coached and I was the client, I shared how I’m feeling massively overwhelmed these days, not in a bad way honestly just in the sense that I feel like I have a lot on my plate but I feel so aligned so it’s really exciting but I got so emotional and tears were flowing and I have nothing but trust in myself and I’ve just never felt this busy so maybe I’m nervous and!!!! He took a moment to let me breathe and then asked me “it sounds like your capacity is expanding… are you ready for that challenge?” and I had a huge release of emotion because here I was STARTING to let a tiny bit of doubt creep in, while he pointed out that I already know I’m beyond capable and yes it’s taking a lot of my energy but, I have a crazy amount of energy to give so!!! I am learning to protect it where I need to and that’s what I’m here to do my sweet hunny bunnies. I know this journey is requiring me to expand beyond my past limitations and I’m being called out in every way shape in form so, here we go!! 

What I’m most excited about is that because I’ve spent the last few years doing this work, and getting to know myself on a deep level, I know it inevitably provides the space for others to do the same and I am giddy over how I get to hold that container for us!! Perhaps you’d be keen to work with me down the line hehe I really know how to make it sexy and fun so you’ll be in good hands! Anyway g2g ttyl solar eclipse energy really be tiring me out, LOVE YA 

xx Sarah