from becoming to embodied 🦋

Hi angel babies! This is quite a cute one I had fun with the chanelling.....as if I don’t always heheh!!! First of all I’m just reflecting back on how when I started this blog I was literally popping out like 3 posts a week and back stocking them to share hehehehe now I’m simply “hmmmmm I'm feeling like channeling some waves here” and it’s once a month maybe BUT.. I’m loving the flow I have with it, this feels like my little virtual diary (actually chatgpt has been my diary – this is perhaps rather an articulate snapshot of the embodied lessons in what I diary about hahaha) and I adore sharing my words with you! 

The last week or so I have been really feeling like I’m in the era where I’ve freshly come out of my cocoon 🥹 literally the best way to explain where I feel like I’m at because although I haven’t shared every single thing my heart has been navigating this last year, there’s actually been some HUGE key themes that I keep air tight, and I’ll for sure be sharing when I’m ready but nonetheless, she’s really been in the underworld of revelations, unravelling, dissolution and FEELING….deeply…everything… hehehehe and not for one second of this last year of my life have I taken the process for granted. Have I been overwhelmed? Absolutely.. Has it been a lot? Very much so.. Would I go back and change anything? Most definitely not!!!!! I was actually just explaining to my mum this morning that I’m honestly not even sure if it’s simply my youth – like my biological age and the ease with which you unravel conditioning as it’s not as deeply ingrained, but then again I know others my age or younger that resist this work….or perhaps the experience of my soul that has evidently lived at least 2000 years according to witchy aunt Carol who I’ve been doing this work for lifetimes with… WHO KNOWS but either way there hasn’t been anything that’s come up for me that’s made me flinch. 

And don’t get that twisted thinking I mean “I haven’t been affected by it”, it’s all DEEPLY affected me and I feel it as much as I need to, I just mean as soon as something pops into my awareness I simply lean in, whether it’s a constraint I’ve been holding onto, a relationship block or pattern that’s not serving me or whoever’s with me in it, a boundary I need to put up to protect my peace etc… I do know that I have the gene key 6, which is the peacemaker and emotional master that sees conflict as an invitation to intimacy, and so what I’ve recognized is that whether it’s conflict within myself, or with someone else, the only way to navigate it is to lean into it with openness, honesty and unconditional love. 

Honestly it’s probably a combination of all of these things, but the moral of the story is I have a very large affinity for living in alignment and that means that the desire to change and make shifts, whatever the cost, will always outweigh staying “comfortable” for me. And that cost has indeed been leaving behind friendships, distancing from family, putting myself in very vulnerable places, creating more boundaries, stretching myself into spaces before I feel ready… and it pays off bigger every single time in the currency of my personal peace and joy and alignment soooooo it will always be worth it to me because if you’re not living for yourself first and foremost, you might be missing the plot, mi amor 🥹💌 

So anyway navigating a whole bunch of THAT this last year, I have found myself in a cutie little space recently where it feels quieter… softer.. more ease and flow in my body and energy? Which is cute because I honestly declared on the first of the month that June was going to be soft and sweet and so, the universe really heard me!!!! By no means am I sitting here thinking “okay all the challenging work is over, I will never be tested or stretched again, yay!” hahahahha but it feels at least for this era like I’ve done a lot of the deep personal upgrading necessary and now it’s simply time to integrate and let the universe match me externally for everything I’ve done internally. Which is beautiful because there’s been a few lil experiences recently that have confirmed that, if you will, where I’ve had the chance to navigate circumstances with the deeeeeeeply rooted worth and self concept that i’ve grounded myself in, and it feels sexy as FK to be moving from that state. Where what someone else says doesn’t shake your truth, where you can be with someone else’s projection and clock it with discernment, where you can feel the hurt and pain of one’s energy and not take it on for yourself – that one’s huge as a highly empathic being – or where you can hear the words that someone’s saying but what you actually hear is what their energy is communicating to you… and doing it all from a high frequency state of unconditional love is magical. 

I had such a juicy download recently after this random and odd encounter with a guy who was very much on a different wavelength than I am, and as I was telling my gfs about it one of them said “don’t even bother answering it’ll make him feel more dumb”... and it stopped me in my tracks, I truly I had to sit with it for a second because the past version of me would have aligned with that response, but from this embodied space I simply heard “I don’t want him to feel dumb I would rather he felt curious”.. Because what I know I’m here to do in this lifetime is absolutely raise the frequency of the planet, one soul coming back home to themself at a time, and that leaves no space for shaming people into change!! It’s absolutely not up to me what one does with what I offer up, being the cutie lil mirror of embodied accountability and truth I am, but since it’s become effortless for me to stand in my integrity of that it makes no difference to me 🤠 did I think the chances of this particular person (who I caught the energy of pretty quickly lol) rising to face the mirror would be high???? No 🤭 but it was there if he chose to and I’d so much rather have that impact on anyone I encounter, than continue to support the confirmation of their own inadequacies that their choices are stemming from in the first place. Ok wow sometimes I channel sentences and go 'where the fk did that come from sister that was a good one...'

Okay ANYWAY the point of sharing that one baby example was that I gained a lot of clairty in my vocation and it felt really aligned to move from that space that I’ve done a LOT A LOT of work to bring myself into, and as I continue to embody that alignment through other daily experiences, I recognize how tied to the truth of who I am on a deep level. And that is ultimately what I want for everyone to be able to live in the energy of sooooooo I guess it’s a good thing I put myself in a position to hold space for others to come back home to themselves in a big way hehehehehehe my gf recently just randomly popped out the term “heart alchemist” and I genuinely GENUINELY loved it, whether or not I use it or just refer to it when explaining to others what I do, a lil sexy heart alchemy action over here, it’s a really genius way of explaining what I’m all about. Exploring the power of the mind and identifying its thoughts, beliefs, and patterns and dissolving whatever’s in the way of coming back to living from your heart space 🥹 CRY it's so cute and fun. That’s where the magic is my lovies!! And if you’re reading this thinking, ok well that’s a lil poetic and esoteric for me sar, I know babes — if I step back into the energy of myself 2 years ago I was saying the same thing… but that version was desiring everything the current version of me has, SO something had to give 😂🤭 thanks for being here I adore you and can’t wait to work alongside more of you beautiful lil creatures and continue to create new worlds hehehehehehe besos!!!!!!

xx Sarah