recalibrating for alignment ⚖️✨

Hello you!! Wow you know what’s so interesting is never in my life have I ever considered myself a writer, or a skilled one at that and therefore starting this blog felt like it was way outside of my wheelhouse, but of course after having so much fun writing the first few, I found myself ITCHING to get to this one the last week or so and I was so eager to put my fresh cutie fall nails to this keyboard and share some insight I got at 12:50am last night that I ditched doing my readings for my program to write this!!! Basically what I’m saying is who the fk ever said you had to be good at something or feel qualified…when all that’s required is that you love doing it!!! 🥹 What a beautiful realization. 

I wrote my first few all within like a week or something, and even though you’re not reading this in real time (not sorry that I’m just trying to stay on TOP OF THINGS) but the last 2 weeks has been absolutely wild wild wild over here. If the last post gave you any inclination to how much I’ve tapped into my spiritual side, just know it went deeper. I had a busy week with work, my program, having my beautiful mama visit me for 5 days and a flood of intuitive information coming at me and like I said before, it’s all feeling very aligned and I’m so excited with where I am taking my life right now - I was about to say where life’s taking me but in this space we know better than to think anybody else is in the driver's seat lol - but it’s still a very overwhelming season! And one of the biggest messages I’m hearing from my higher self currently is about balance. 

Fortunately for me, my higher self is checking in at the most convenient times like almost 1am as I was falling asleep last night or 6am this morning as if she thought that was enough sleep??? 🥲 The early morning wake ups have been happening very often lately and it’s wild but it comes with very clear intuitive messages and we simply do not fall back asleep which has been fun. But the image painted last night for me was myself on like, a teeter totter?! In the middle, trying to maintain the balance by shifting back and forth and each time you move to one side you have to scurry back to maintain the balance…you’re seeing what I’m seeing right? So as I’m currently navigating how to create more balance in my life, that image made me realize I don’t think you ever actually achieve a perfect balance.. Rather you’re constantly shifting and recalibrating what works in the moments. I’ll give some context and then we can go deeper..

I’ve had the desire to create more boundaries in my life right now, with myself mostly and my schedule and social life and discipline, but also with family!! And for someone that’s always been very very close with my family, it initially feels a little bit uncomfy, okay a LOT uncomfy because things have just always been a certain way, but I’m recognizing that where I’m at currently in this season, it’s requiring a new version of me to step forward and that means naturally, things have to change. Things like telling your mum aka your best friend that her staying any longer than 5 nights would be a little bit too much when in the past, we’ve never had a limit on how much time we spend together! BUT in the past I didn’t live in my own cutie little 500sqft studio apartment that is my sacred space that I protect heavily and have a full work schedule while navigating a part time program that has me leaning heavily into my passion and purpose…. 🥹 which is all REALLY GREAT and I know my mum is reading this and she’s so excited for me and proud because she’s the best, and we had some really wonderful chats about this in her week with me because I’m learning that the importance of boundaries is unparalleled. You need to put them in place with the people that you care about and love so that you can continue to nurture those relationships in a way that fills you up before it drains you. The last time she stayed with me for more than 5 nights I was so ready for her to be out of my space (peace and love) by the last day that I felt agitated and irritable, so her leaving would have been a sense of relief and I would so much rather her leave while we’re fully invested in and enjoying each others company so it makes us look forward to the next one, you know!? You might not know tbh and that’s okay, 2 years ago I wouldn’t have seen it that way but like I said, new level of Sarah!! 

Since moving out to Vancouver almost 3 years ago, I made it home for all the holidays and birthdays and I would always go for at least a week, but in the last year I feel so much better when I can squeeze a really quality visit in a shorter amount of time because it makes me appreciate the time spent that much more, and I can’t always just take off a week or two without sacrificing work, though I do have a lot of flexibility in that I just choose where my time is. And circling back to the teeter totter image, I’m realizing that this is likely just where I’m at in my life right now. And that maybe in another year I WILL want to spend a whole two weeks at home with my family because I have the freedom to do so, and it fills my cup in a way that differs from right now. The balance I’m creating right now will look different than what it might even just 3 months from now.. my program will require more of my energy and maybe I’ll have less to give to work, or maybe it’ll look like me basking in the mexico sun while studying and taking a break from work, god the world really is your oyster!! 🦪 Family examples are juicy but know that this is being applied to my relationship to myself and my intuition, my ego lol, in work, in studying…A LOT of balance being navigated!!!

I think the whole point of this one was to remind myself to practice patience and grace as I move through and navigate new seasons of my life, and know that I will always be adjusting to what that looks like for me. If you take absolutely anything from this post though please take the importance of communicating your boundaries to others because if they don’t know them and you put them in place anyway, it builds resentment and misunderstanding and those are some of my least favourite things in the WORLD! We love a sexy lil thoughtfully communicated boundary that is in service of relationships with others and yourself 💞 

And if you decide to take another thing from here… I highly recommend the part about giving yourself grace and being patient with yourself as you navigate the wild and crazy and always changing seasons of life because, the whole point is to be present through it all and enjoy it while you’re in it. And I’m literally just visualizing it right now but the more you practice going back and forth on that teeter totter to find your balance, the quicker you will find your flow and be able to shift seamlessly through your seasons.

Wow cute okay I need to go catch up on that 5 hours of sleep hahahah ciao sweet angel!! 

xx Sarah